I have not written in ages. goodness gracious. As as songwriter, I have decided that it would be helpful to not only write constantly with my voice, but also with my keyboard. I have started my blog back up and running. I am not completely postitive if I am ready to share it with the world, but I am ready to start writing what is on my mind all the time. Lately it seems that I am completely and postively unsure of what direction to go in with my life. Everyone keeps telling me, that as in my grandparents, aunts and uncles and of course my parents, that I am very young and have plenty of time. But the truth is, I really don't have plenty of time. School is only making my options harder. I have narrowed it down to a few careers but we shall see what happens. Time can only tell, and I should not be trusted as my mind changes like the weather. Something that has been on my mind lately and has come of interested, is the practice of plural marriages, Polygamy. I am currently in academic writing at the Univirsity of Winnipeg. We had to pick a subject and created a thesis statement cocerning this topic.

My thesis was how practicing polygamy negatively affects the upbringing of children in North America. I have become obessed and completely engulphed myself in this topic. More spefically with the Yearning for Zion Ranch raid in 2008. I am just fasicinated in their culture and their personal lives. I have watched countless video's of these women, their homes and methods for raising their children. It is rather sad, they claim that there is no sort of the arrangement of marriage to males and underage girls, but countless first hand experiences have led me to believe otherwise. I cannot possibly imagine being married at the sole age of 14. who out of their right mind would want that for their daughters? I honestly feel sorry for those young girls. They are never taught of any human anatomy or any sexual education. What they learn about sex is on their wedding night. In the biography of Elissa Wall, Stolen Innocence,who was forced into an arranged marriage at 14 to her 19-year old cousin, said that even in Science textbooks human private parts were covered up.To me this is such a shame. I am not saying that it is a horrible thing not to have sex before marriage, to each their own. But the fact that these girls have no education of what happens in the bedroom before it happens, breaks my heart.

There are many stories about this particular ranch, and the whole community is just very different to the outside world. Here are a few pictures that have caught my eye.

               Mothers awaiting to hear the news of when their children would be returned

One of the beds found inside the temple, that faithful followers believed was the gardeniers bed...
Long hair of many girls at the ranch were found here.

Gates outside that surround the ranch, and the large white structure is the main temple of worship.

land of talk

Recently, I have become obessed with a canadian band, locals from Quebec. They go by the name of Land of Talk. I highly suggest if anyone loves depressing and heartbreaking music as much as me, that they listen to this band. I was talking with a co-worker about how all we listen to is for a lack of a more creative word, Sad music. It is true, and I can't exactly pinpoint the reason why I listen to this type of music. Don't get me wrong, I love happy, up beat and hip happening songs. For example, one of my favourite songs is Daylight by Matt and Kim. This song is probably the best song for a young hipster to strut your stuff to, as myself. I remember countless times, walking to class in Italy with this song playing. Quite a few times , I had to wipe the smile off my face. On another note, I honestly believe that the song It's Okay , but Land of Talk is the most beautiful heartbreaking song I have ever heard. Somehow when I listen to this song, I realize that it's going to be okay. After, just going through what seems like my biggest heartbreak yet, this song has brought alot of comfort to me. It doesn't rip at the asshole's heart who used you or stole that precious heart of yours. It doesn't talk about how you could do so much better, or waste your time with another asshole. It is basically just saying that , It's okay, we all feel this sometimes. so comforting to know this. Knowing that everyone feels this way. In a way, I feel like it is a letter to her past lover. She's telling him that it's alright that he broke her heart. Don't feel bad about it, it's happened before. If he ever read this, I'd like to say the same thing. Just so you know I'm going to be okay.
I am so thankful , to musicians that write soundtracks to my life. I have decided to start a soundtrack to my life. I want to look back when I am 85 years old and be able to look at pictures and listen to music. Be able to say, I have lived a pretty fucking awesome life.
so thank you land of talk, you have made the list. Many more to come.

Much love from the hipster
rhi

nurses are my new bestfriends

In the last week I have been in and out of the hospital 5 times. The first time was last week, where the doctor told me I had tonsilitis. JOY! It was awful, absoutely the most disgusting sickness I have ever had. Apart from wanting to die the entire time, I slept constantly. I also couldn't eat very much, I pretty much overdosed on chicken noodle soup. The next time was the very next day, so the doctor could check up on me. It seemed that everything was fine, keep taking my meds, which were a high dosage of amoxicillian. So I was good for the rest of the week, but come tuesday Morning, I was beyond belief itchy. I couldn't stop itching. So before I went out that night with megan, I went to the walk in clinic, and the doctor told me that I was having an allergic reaction to the penacillin I was taking. Good thing I knew I was allergic to it. She told me to stop taking my tonsilitis meds, which was down now, and prescribed me to this new drug. When the pharamacist told about this new one, he said to take it in the morning because it will make me very excited and happy. oh boy did they ever. Today was my third day on the pills at 830 am I had my sister blast my favourite dance beats in the kitchen while eating my toast. I should take some more of these in the morning! But then I would take benadryll to take the itching away, so that knocked me right out. Then on wednesday night, I wasn't feeling too well, and when mom came home she decided to take me to the emergency. I was absolutely covered in spots, rash, hives whatever you want to call them. I looked like a lobster with leporsey. They were covering every single inch of my body. Doctor gave me some strong drugs to take away the pain and basically said just to wait it out. He also reminded me to remember for future references that I am allergic to Penacillin. Wonderful. Oh, he also thinks that I may have never had tonsilitis, that it could be mono. Oh perfect. So this morning I was back at the hospital to get my blood taken, results come in on Monday! Prego prego I am praying that I don't have mono. It would just really suck, if I got mono. I have hardly been able to enjoy my time at home because I have been sick almost every single day. But I plan on enjoying myself this weekend! Mono or no Mono , I may pay for it sunday or monday but that's okay! I am so happy to be home with my friends and family. I think I may be driving them all a little crazy though. I have no purpose here...like actually. I joke about it, but its about time that I get a gosh darn job. But I have so much time till I am off again to get a job, right now im just enjoying spending time with the people I love and haven't seen in a long time. ciao ciao for now loves rhi

welcome home rhianna, by the way were going to give you tonsilitis. frcuk my life.

All that I know, is that I dont know how to be something you miss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rLhEFvXQIw&feature=fvst When I first heard this song, I honestly skipped over it at about 0:37 seconds. I thought nothing about it and what it could mean to me, until I stumbled upon this version on youtube. I love spending hours on youtube listening to people sing different versions of songs. After hearing this version, I feel in love with it. Maybe, I never liked it because its by Taylor Swift, and I think hearing her sing it doesnt mean anything to me anymore. I find that in her recent album she has absolutely no emotion in her voice. I think that takes alot for me to say considering that I was her biggest fan at one point in time. I just love the rawness and reality of this song. Ultimate break up song right here.

Single Girls

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYUKq94cJiI

This makes me want to attempt to learn to play piano again.

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