a work in progress

Well, I think I officially have Insomnia. I just cannot sleep anymore. Here I am at 1:57 am, at my computer, with my suitcase in the corner, still half ass packed. I have done some down sizing, as my mother calls it. Going through what you packed, and asking yourself " Do I really need this?", but this event only resulted in 3 shirts being put back in the closet. Tonight, I dyed my hair, pluked the brows, mani and pedi all to prepare for romaaa =) also it was time to dye my hair. Note to self, never dye your hair on your own again. I missed so many spots, and if you look really closely you can notice it. Also I was covered in hair dye, and had to scrub at my skin for at least 7 mintues to make some progress. SO here I am, putting off sleeping, and finishing packing. I am listening to angus and Julia, searching for places to see in Florence and ocassionally glancing up at the full moon right outside of my balcony. so now it is 205am, i will go to sleep now. because I have to wake up at 6am.
love love love
rhi

unexpected sights

Today was simply wonderful. Guilia went to the main piazza in town, ate gelato and laughed at the italians who thought they could ice skate. Then we played in the park, and walked home.
Chocolate gelato is my weakness, I could have ate at least 2 more cones... Not much else to say other than the fact that I am going to ROMEEEEEEE tommorrow. Cannot wait. I may possibly pee my pants.

I will try to update , via voyaging.
until then,
rhi

ps. Lells, you are never going to believe who I bumped into on the street today, not just once but twice. yes, it was frangayso.

insomnia

I cannot sleep, no matter what I do. I am just so excited for Brook to come to Italiaaaa. Only 2 more sleeps until I get to see her sweet face, and we are reunited. I am little a little kid on christmas eve, tossin and turning wondering when the clock will turn to morning time. I cannot wait for us to start our trip. We start off With 3 nights in Rome, 2 of those nights Caity and Meredith are coming with us, but they are heading back on the monday morning because they have to work. So brook and I plan on venturing out to the Catacombs on Monday, and I would really like to see some things off the old beaten path. I will have plenty of pictures to show. Then we are off to Venice for 2 days and 1 night, I cannot imagine the feeling of being there. have wanted to see this place for years, and now I will in a matter of days. So many bridges to walk across, so many boats to ride in and many bottles of wine to try. After our Venice experience, we are headed to the wonderous city of Florence. I think I am really excited to see Florence, after some quicky handy dandy research off of google and some pictures from a friends recent stay in Florence. The duomo is absolutely beautiful, not quite sure what style it is from. I think it is the romantic style, but I could be very wrong. I am sure we will have a great time, we are staying at a hostel with other young people, so maybe we might meet more people! I always love meeting new people when you travel. Then back to Milan, for 4 days and 3 nights. I am a little sad, that none of my au pair friends here will be able to meet Brook. Meredith is off to the mountains with her family, Tania and Eve are in Paris, Mon is in Urbino but she will be able to meet Tatiana. Not quite sure what we are goin to do , meaning where we are going to go out, haha. I imagine the Club, Wish and somewhere on Corso Como. I have not been to A disco, since New years eve, and most of you know how that turned out. But this time I plan on not making friends that have an unlimited supply of alcohol. Bad idea. The past 2 days have been absolutely disgusting pouring rain, and cold windy fronts, so I have been catching up on the Vampire diaries. I told myself I was going to wait till I got home, and buy the seasons, but I couldnt bare it anymore. So now, I havent been able to sleep because I have been staying up till 3am, watching Vampires. sometimes I worry myself. I have stumbled upon this amazing musician, named Ed Harcourt. Actually lella posted it on her blog, a song called This ones for you. such a beautiful song. I would post the link, but that would require effort from me, and I dont have much of that today. well until tommorrow,

rhi

First thought

As I was attempting to entertain Guilia yesterday at the parco, I had this strange sudden feeling of missing something. I am not quite sure what triggered this feeling, it could have been the rain or the dark gloomy cloud above my head. It could have been that Guilia was taking her angry out on me, and it very well could have been the fact that I have been away from home for 5.5 months now. It really seems unreal to me, that I have managed to do so well for myself being away from home at such a young age. Although every now and then, I feel like a child and all I really want is to be home. I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss my parents and my sister, I miss my dogs, I miss the sound of the washing machine when I wake up in the morning, I miss my favourite foods, I miss my pink house coat, I miss my Canadian toothpaste, I miss being able to lay on my couch and watch MTV and not feeling like this is awkward. As you can see I miss alot of things, and after going on for what seemed like hours about the things I missed, I started to think about how I dealt with missing these things. Yes, I have cried a couple of times because I missed everyone but it just felt that missing something was always part of the routine. Never in my 18 years of life have I been completely satisfied with everything that was within my reach. I have always missed someone or something, that I just cannot have at that moment. It seems that personally, I have always been too far away from someone who was important in my life. I started to wonder if this opportunity is really worth missing more than I am achieving. For better way to put it, instead of babbling on and confusing you. I am just wondering, when do you stop missing people? Does that feeling of longing for someone or abandonment ever go away? It doesn't matter if they were in your life ages ago, or last week, I feel like I am always longing for that person. I do not want missing someone to become apart of my routine.. The last thought that popped into my mind, is what happens when you stop missing that person. Is it because you have returned to them, or is it because you have forgotten what to miss about them.