First thought

As I was attempting to entertain Guilia yesterday at the parco, I had this strange sudden feeling of missing something. I am not quite sure what triggered this feeling, it could have been the rain or the dark gloomy cloud above my head. It could have been that Guilia was taking her angry out on me, and it very well could have been the fact that I have been away from home for 5.5 months now. It really seems unreal to me, that I have managed to do so well for myself being away from home at such a young age. Although every now and then, I feel like a child and all I really want is to be home. I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss my parents and my sister, I miss my dogs, I miss the sound of the washing machine when I wake up in the morning, I miss my favourite foods, I miss my pink house coat, I miss my Canadian toothpaste, I miss being able to lay on my couch and watch MTV and not feeling like this is awkward. As you can see I miss alot of things, and after going on for what seemed like hours about the things I missed, I started to think about how I dealt with missing these things. Yes, I have cried a couple of times because I missed everyone but it just felt that missing something was always part of the routine. Never in my 18 years of life have I been completely satisfied with everything that was within my reach. I have always missed someone or something, that I just cannot have at that moment. It seems that personally, I have always been too far away from someone who was important in my life. I started to wonder if this opportunity is really worth missing more than I am achieving. For better way to put it, instead of babbling on and confusing you. I am just wondering, when do you stop missing people? Does that feeling of longing for someone or abandonment ever go away? It doesn't matter if they were in your life ages ago, or last week, I feel like I am always longing for that person. I do not want missing someone to become apart of my routine.. The last thought that popped into my mind, is what happens when you stop missing that person. Is it because you have returned to them, or is it because you have forgotten what to miss about them.